It’s been a week since I broke up with my boyfriend for the past 6 years. Last week, roughly the same time as I begin to write this blog, I went out to meet him. I asked for this, I know what I have and must to do… I began feeling that he was slipping away when we reached our 6th year anniversary, it started with a hint. A hint that most women feel when we know there is something wrong with our partners. The feeling grew stronger when I begin to see signs, signs that I felt when we had the some problems before that lead to our first break-up.
Yes we broke up before and I gave him a second chance. I was young, scared and he was my first, so I gave in. I want to try to work things out again. We lasted 4 years, and finally we end up trying to save what is left when we reached our 6th year. Time flies, it was a week ago when I decided for myself. It was a week ago when I decided to give up on one of the most important thing that I cherish the most. Having said this, I have no regrets and what ifs. I know I gave my all to save my relationship. I know I did my part. I know I have my faults and short comings. But I know this time there is no turning back…
I hope one day I can truly say that I am completely OK. It will take time to mend my broken heart, but I know it will heal. A good start is to accept the things that happened. I keep on praying to God to help me in my road to full recovery. I know that He will not fail me. 
The hole in my chest is slowly closing up, I can now breathe smoothly. I have decided to move on, and not to look back on the hurtful things that I have experienced. It was a decision, and a good one at that. I don’t want bitterness to win over me, I will just hurt myself more. I don’t want that to happen. I want to be happy.
I bravely face my future with a big smile on my face. Even though I am not certain on what God’s plans for me, I wake up each morning thanking HIM for everything. The support from my family, friends and office mates are so over whelming, that I have no time to feel sad. I feel their love for me all the time. Thanks Guys! I am doing my very best to stay positive in all the things that is happening to me, because I know that things happen for a reason. There is no need to feel sad and blue, because life is short and we only live once, so might as well enjoy every moment of it. Time to stand tall and walk again. Careful not to trip on broken glasses all around me, I’m in no hurry… Baby steps Anne…. Baby steps… 
